My Light Bulb Moment

I didn't lose anything this week. But I am not surprised. With the kids having two days off of school, (which meant I had two days off of the gym - didn't have to, but I did) and also being spoiled on my birthday, I just ended up taking in more calories than I burned. But if it wasn't for my awesome trainer Kali, I'm sure I would have gained. She is the best - her workouts are different than I have ever had. She changes things up, and she pushes me. It's so great to sweat like that. I walk out of that gym with my head held high.
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As a family this week, we played football - three on three. Way fun - bloody lips and all. Since Chip doesn't get home till almost 7:30 - daylight is quickly slipping away at that time, so he didn't even change his clothes. :)
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I had a light bulb moment this week. I realized after the negative self talk was very loud in my head, that I don't believe I can do certain things. Hello Tracy - what's my motto? "Whether I think I can, or I think I can't, I'm right." - For example, I have never believed that I actually CAN be a size ten (hasn't happened in jeans yet, dang it!) and I have never believed that I actually CAN run a mile. Those are things that I deny over and over again. I realized that I have talked myself into the fact that I "am just not a runner" and that "I am meant to wear a size 12 jeans for the rest of my life." It's time for me to start believing what I always say at the end of every post - I CAN!!!!! This is not an easy thing to do - certainly easier said than done. But now I recognize it, now I know that I need to change my mind set about things. Even though I want to be able to run, and even though I want to be a smaller size, it can't happen unless I believe it can first.

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So, this time, I say it in a whole new light...

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I CAN!!!!!