That picture over to your right of me eating an apple should be replaced with what I've really been eating lately. Let's see - an ice cream sundae just about every day since I've been back - plus a Fuddrucker's brownie yesterday (the best in the world), and well, if I kept going, I'd embarrass myself a whole lot more than I am right now.
I'm in a yucky, depressed state of mind and I want and need that to change NOW. I am in a rut and I hate it. I love your motivating comments, and I always think that after I read them, I am going to change, but I don't. I keep wondering what it was that made me get to that point when I was on track and feeling good a while ago. I just don't know. There has to be a strong desire to get going again. That's what I don't understand. I feel miserable. I'm not happy. I want to look and feel better, so why is the desire not strong enough? I feel like I want it badly enough, but how can I say that and not do anything about it? I don't know. I really don't.
I'm in a yucky, depressed state of mind and I want and need that to change NOW. I am in a rut and I hate it. I love your motivating comments, and I always think that after I read them, I am going to change, but I don't. I keep wondering what it was that made me get to that point when I was on track and feeling good a while ago. I just don't know. There has to be a strong desire to get going again. That's what I don't understand. I feel miserable. I'm not happy. I want to look and feel better, so why is the desire not strong enough? I feel like I want it badly enough, but how can I say that and not do anything about it? I don't know. I really don't.
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I am right there with you. I have been feeling the same way lately. I feel good when I exercise, but I struggle to get off my tush and do it. We just need to start, it is getting started that is the hard part.
My dearest Tracy,
All is not lost. We are worth it!!! Don't be hard on yourself. When I see you tomorrow...we will talk and let the frustration go. It is time (again) to get back on the wagon. I love you.
Lisa Yeargain
You're such a goal oriented person, Tracy. I know you can do this. It's the summer time and the livin' and eatin' is so easy!!! Especially when the kids are home and just want to eat a bunch of junk - it's hard not to join in. I need to get you on a friend of mine's (bad grammar) e-mail list. She writes healthy tip e-mails each week. They're full of information and inspiration! I'll forward the next one to you.
Each day is a new day! Just keep trying and do not give up! This is a lifestyle change, you know?
You can do this!
Kris :D
I know it's hard Tracy, but if you can get back to the gym, I think the eating part will start to turn around again. I know that when you feel down it is the hardest thing to do, but I think it will get you in the right mindset again once you do it two or three times in a row. I know you can do it!!
Love,
Kris
I know when I exercise I feel all clean and good and less tempted to put yucky food inside. Also, I am very interested in the way and type of food that Mitsi now eats. I'll go to the bookstore, get a book for you and me and send your's home with Beth. Janet has lost 10 pounds (not sure how long she has been following it) and Mitsi lost 35 and Mitchell 25 in about 4 months. I'm looking forward to it! Mitsi does not go hungry - it's all about the types of food that you eat and the combinations you eat them with. There is hope!!
Love, Mom
I just got back from my mom's, where the cooking always includes a stick of butter, grease, and fat, but it's YUMMY! I always feel the desire to eat and eat, which I did. I think that as long as it's only temporary, it's ok, but it is hard to go back to eating oatmeal when I was used to scrambled french toast for breakfast. :) Keep trying! You'll feel the drive again soon!
Thank you everyone, SO much. I am feeling more and more motivated every day. I just got back from a few days in McCall - even though I had the BEST time - I would bet a thousand dollars I gained atleast 3 more pounds. I'm done. I'm DONE!
oh honey. I feel awful for you. Maybe you should try worrying less about what you eat and worry more about the exercise. I fed my in-laws all sorts of desserts this weekend and I thought they'd decline but they pigged out. I asked them about it cause they are major fitness gurus and they said they had ridden their bikes over a 100 miles each that week. So who cares what they eat their bodies will burn it.
Obviously that is an extreme example, many of us don't ride our bikes from Denver to Colorado Springs. But when I lost my forty pounds I did it by working out - A TON. I got so I loved it, it was addicting and the body changes made me eat less crap. But trying to diet never worked well for me. Just a thought.
Man I wish I could give you my fitness 19 membership. I loved that place.
Hi Tracy--okay missy i know my motivation right now is my bathing suit.. dave has lost 15-20 pounds himself just by working out.. damm men! and now i have to watch my diet and exercise.. and when i just do have that feeling of doing both i just put on my 2 peice and think "oh my i need to lose this weight not to humiliate myself.. i know a funky way to do it but it gets me back in the gym fast!
Gillian
You know what you need right now? A giant Diet PEPSI!! No calories and plenty of caffeine to take the edge off. Drop by and I'll take care of you. (Nobody else needs to know). When you dared to turn your back on Pepsi you set in motion a chain of events that are now haunting you. Come back to us and everything will be better.
Love YOU!!! Sheree
Peek a boo I found you!!
Tracy I am so proud of you. I too am in the process of losing it and it isn't easy. I remember when you lost it here in Anaheim and I was proud of you then too. I joined the gym and even got myself a trainer for 4sessions and he said it's all "calories in and calories out". So, if you want to eat something yummy...take a bite...but just eat one or two bites. Life is for living, so enjoy life, just in smaller doses. I'm proud of you, and I thought you looked "HOT" when you were here in California, so don't be so hard on yourself girl.
Hang in there. It took you a long time to put on the weight, if takes a couple months to lose it, that's okay.
Keep going girl . . .
Love ya,
Andrea
i think i am in a rut right next to yours!
Okay, my friend, it's been over 2 weeks since your last post and this is your wakeup call! Yuo just need to start making yourself accountable again by gettin on here nad taking those pictures and doing it! Unless you reakky are DONE, then you're off the hook and I really think you look FABULOUS the way you are. 10-12 lbs in nothing to sneeze at, that's for sure. I will tell you that I stopped my diet pepsi about 4 days ago and I was craving SO bad today. SO, I popped open a can and poured it over ice and took a sip and.......YUCK!!! I think I'm actually over it. that and the fact that I weighed in at 175 AGAIN at the doctors today. I haven't changed in almost 5 years. I waver between 170-175, but that's it. I wish I had your determination and gusto! You really did do a fantastic job on yourself! Congrats!
Tracy: You are doing awesome! Just look at the progress you have made since week one. Sure it's a small set back, but not anywhere near where you started! You are making progress even in your frustration. Keep up the great work. Don't let the frustration get you down and keep your from moving forward. You look great to me!!
so how is the diet going. waiting to hear more. . .
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