Excuse my blunt-ness..... Losing weight sucks.
That's all there is to it!
It is the toughest thing I have ever put myself through. If only I didn't let it all happen in the first place. I used to be so careless, and now I am paying for it.
It's my wonderful time of the month. I am lucky enough to get ALL of the symptoms - cramps, headaches, bloating, mood swings, and (this one is the worst) increased appetite. It feels like someone else is controlling my hands when it comes to putting food into my mouth. I hate it.
What I hate most of all is how touchy my weight is! Miss a work out? Gain a pound. Eat a too much? Gain a pound. That's what it seems like. If only my efforts had the opposite effect! Good work out? Lose a pound! Skip a second helping? Lose a pound! Of course not - that would be too easy.
I was SO depressed last night when I weighed in. I told Chip I wasn't going to post and that I wanted to go get a big 44 ouncer of Diet Pepsi. (Not one sip this week by the way!) He loves me right now - this second - all 158 pounds of me. I'm so thankful for that. In fact, last night while trying hard to be positive when all I wanted to do was cry myself to sleep and stay there for a week, I realized something.
I always tend to feel sorry for myself for struggling so much with my weight. I tell myself that I will trade this challenge for another one any time. That's when I realized that perhaps I really am blessed. Because would I really? No. I would much rather struggle with this than a terrible illness, or an unhappy marriage, or not having friends, etc, etc.
I am still going to continue with this. I will try my best this week. I am still determined to accomplish my goals. This blog helps me be accountable. If it wasn't for all of you reading, I would be drowning my woes in Diet Pepsi and oh, I don't know.... hostess cupcakes or something!
I CAN!!!!!!!!!!
That's all there is to it!
It is the toughest thing I have ever put myself through. If only I didn't let it all happen in the first place. I used to be so careless, and now I am paying for it.
It's my wonderful time of the month. I am lucky enough to get ALL of the symptoms - cramps, headaches, bloating, mood swings, and (this one is the worst) increased appetite. It feels like someone else is controlling my hands when it comes to putting food into my mouth. I hate it.
What I hate most of all is how touchy my weight is! Miss a work out? Gain a pound. Eat a too much? Gain a pound. That's what it seems like. If only my efforts had the opposite effect! Good work out? Lose a pound! Skip a second helping? Lose a pound! Of course not - that would be too easy.
I was SO depressed last night when I weighed in. I told Chip I wasn't going to post and that I wanted to go get a big 44 ouncer of Diet Pepsi. (Not one sip this week by the way!) He loves me right now - this second - all 158 pounds of me. I'm so thankful for that. In fact, last night while trying hard to be positive when all I wanted to do was cry myself to sleep and stay there for a week, I realized something.
I always tend to feel sorry for myself for struggling so much with my weight. I tell myself that I will trade this challenge for another one any time. That's when I realized that perhaps I really am blessed. Because would I really? No. I would much rather struggle with this than a terrible illness, or an unhappy marriage, or not having friends, etc, etc.
I am still going to continue with this. I will try my best this week. I am still determined to accomplish my goals. This blog helps me be accountable. If it wasn't for all of you reading, I would be drowning my woes in Diet Pepsi and oh, I don't know.... hostess cupcakes or something!
I CAN!!!!!!!!!!
10 comments:
Drown them in Skinny Cow fudgecicles! So yummy, you would never know they "okay" to eat!
I'm so proud of you for sticking with it after the bad wiegh-in. That is when you see the results, when you stop eating (or in your case drinking) because you are emotional. Anyone can eat healthy when they are in their right frame of mind. It takes a lot of will power not go to your addiction when you "need" that comfort. I love you Trace! Can't wait to see you in a couple of weeks - ALL (or less) of you!
Jody is absolutely right. Anything is easy to do when things are going well. The true test really is when stuff goes bad. Sometimes my mantra is "I'm tougher than this!" and it will help me get through a particularly bad moment. You are tougher than this you know. You can! See you very very soon!
Lots of love,
Mom
thank you for this post tracy! i so need it, as i am up 2.5 pounds myself! ugh! and thanks for your comment too. i think i will take your advice and become a little more accountable to my readers. all two of them! :)
Don't give up, Tracy! I blame your weight gain this week on the time of the month. You have probably retained water and those 2 lbs will be off next weigh-in. Keep up on those workouts even if you feel sluggish this week, you'll feel better. Take an extra walk on one of these cooler nights. You can do this!! I know you can!!
Love ya,
Nikki
Tracy,
You are really brave to be doing all of this in such a public way. I know it is tough to post when the end result was not what you want, but it really shows your strength. You CAN do this, but you are already a winner for the person you are inside and out. So many people love you, and that is the real beauty in life!
~Kris
What a hard week for you. I get it! Losing weight sucks! And blows! And I didn't think it was physically possible to do both. But you CAN do it. I've been struggling, too. I use every excuse--this week: I'm tired, my sister is visiting, that cupcake needed testing. I'll keep trying if you do! :)
Steph
Oh, and by the way, if I haven't already said it--You look fantastic! Right now. Even if you're NOT at your goal weight! :)
Steph
If it makes you feel better, I gained a pound yesterday too. :(
TRACY!!!! You are the woman! You have to know that it's not just about the weight by now. I know it's always in the back of your mind. But, at this point it really is about being healthier than you were before you started this whole thing. Don't you feel fantastic? Okay, maybe after your done with that time of the month. :) I know I'd be SO jealous if we were able to be together right now. And if you stood next to me, you'd feel 9 million times better than you do. LOL Love you girl
Hi Tracy,
I saw this link on your regular family blog. I am absolutely sure that this set-back is entirely due to it being "that time of the month". You wait and see, the next weigh-in will show a loss. I need to get going on weight loss myself, you'll be my inspiration.
Love to you and your family,
Aunt Annie
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